I would like to apologise to my contacts on Facebook, some nasty wee piece of human sewage had hacked my account and Facebook are not exactly being quick to sort it out!
My Jayne Johnson page is still accessible to me, via my private account, but the Hacker also has access… so I apologise for any strange going ons that may happen!
A Blessing for a Friend on the Arrival of Illness
by John O’Donohue
Now is the time of dark invitation
beyond a frontier that you did not expect.
Abruptly your old life seems distant.
You barely noticed how each day opened
a path through fields never questioned
yet expected deep down to hold treasure.
Now your time on earth becomes full of threat.
Before your eyes your future shrinks.
You lived absorbed in the day to day so continuous
with everything around you that you could forget
you were separate.
Now this dark companion has come between you.
Distances have opened in your eyes.
You feel that against your will
A stranger has married your heart.
Nothing before has made you feel so isolated
When the reverberations of shock subside in you,
may grace come to restore you to balance.
May it shape a new space in your heart
to embrace this illness as a teacher
who has come to open your life to new worlds.
May you find in yourself a courageous hospitality
towards what is difficult, painful and unknown.
May you use this illness as a lantern
to illuminate the new qualities that will emerge in you.
May your fragile harvesting of this slow light help you
release whatever has become false in you.
May you trust this light to clear a path
through all the fog of old unease and anxiety
until you feel a rising within you,
a tranquility profound enough to call the storm to stillness.
May you find the wisdom to listen to your illness,
ask it why it came,
why it chose your friendship,
where it wants to take you,
what it wants you to know,
what quality of space it wants to create in you,
what you need to learn to become more fully yourself,
that your presence may shine in the world.
May you keep faith with your body,
learning to see it as a holy sanctuary
which can bring this night wound
gradually towards the healing and freedom of dawn.
“Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around. You tell them things that you’ve never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more. You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you. When something wonderful happens, you can’t wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement. They are not embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself. Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful. There is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness when they are around. You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you because they love you for who you are. The things that seem insignificant to most people such as a note, song or walk become invaluable treasures kept safe in your heart to cherish forever. Memories of your childhood come back and are so clear and vivid it’s like being young again. Colors seem brighter and more brilliant. Laughter seems part of daily life where before it was infrequent or didn’t exist at all. A phone call or two during the day helps to get you through a long day’s work and always brings a smile to your face. In their presence, there’s no need for continuous conversation, but you find you’re quite content in just having them nearby. Things that never interested you before become fascinating because you know they are important to this person who is so special to you. You think of this person on every occasion and in everything you do. Simple things bring them to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind or even a storm cloud on the horizon. You open your heart knowing that there’s a chance it may be broken one day and in opening your heart, you experience a love and joy that you never dreamed possible. You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to feel true pleasure that’s so real it scares you. You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and possibly a soul mate who will remain loyal to the end. Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life.”
I was very honoured to be ask to give a presentation to the Rotary Club of West Fife tonight. A lot of interest in the in’s and out’s of my job and a lot of questions asked afterwards.
Really enjoyable night!
Credit : Science & Metaphysics
It was for me a first … because not only was I doing the “handfasting” and “jumping the broom” ceremonies, but in acknowledgement to their belief, they also had a Wiccan Priestess doing part of the ceremony… for the very first time I had to work alongside someone else!
It was a very interesting and lovely ceremony … made very special by two very lovely brides .. and the care and thought that they had put in for every single one of their guests.
They had a dancing group called Thieving Magpies .. who kept everyone enthralled and entertained .. and even had a pet SKUNK called Wilfred! (I think I am a wee bit in love with Wilfred!).
The day was fantastic .. very memorable, for the laughter, tears (of happiness), friendship and just the great feeling of joy that seemed to be all around!
I hope you like the photos!
I write on a couple of different blogs .. which I like to keep separate .. this is something I wrote a couple of years ago for a very good friend who was going through a rough time … since then I have shared it with a couple of other people who deserve it ..
This pain you are feeling and the emptiness it leaves inside you will not last forever.
One day you will wake up and your first thought will not be painful or about her.
It is funny how the people that treat us badly are the people we want. They have a pull on our emotions that make us suffer and love all at the same time. It takes a long time to feel anything again because what we have felt we think we can only feel for that person. Maybe that is true. Maybe we do love different people in different ways.
A relationship that is emotionally unstable keeps us hooked, like a drug.. it is our addiction. We hate the lows but love the highs and are prepared to put up with abuse of both the mental and sometimes the physical type for those few moments when we are told and feel we are loved.
This is not love. This is power, control. Someone who truly loves you does so in a quiet way, an unassuming way. There is little drama, little pain, no lies, just a quiet understanding and a peace.
It may not be wildly exciting and nor should it be, excitement and adrenalin cannot last forever. What does last is the knowing, the comfort and the peace that comes from having someone hold you, not for sex, not for show but just because they want to hold you for you and the comfort it gives to both.
This is the person who will be there when your times are bad, who understands that sometimes you need space, quietness and time to be alone. Not as a reflection of how you feel about them, but how you feel about yourself.
When you find yourself trying too hard, excusing the little lies and the things that are done to make you jealous, angry or upset it is time to stop trying, to walk away.
Everyone will hurt, everyone thinks they will never love again, everyone feels alone, useless, a failure and unwanted at sometime. This is life, this is love.
We can love, and we can love wrongly, we can confuse our “need” with our “want” and some people know exactly how to make us feel as if we “need” them in our lives. The truth is, we never “need” anyone and nor should we. Need is about control. Want is about love.
The people who eventually understand what love is are the people who have loved and lost, had a broken heart that they thought they would never recover from, a thought that they will never be able to move on and that they will be alone forever with an empty heart.
These are the lucky people, although they may not realise it at first. The ones who know what capacity their heart has for love and who are willing to sit back, be honest and take time to recover. To allow the healing of the heart to take it’s own time, to not rush, not push, not jump into something else that might mask the pain for a while.
These are the brave people. The right people. You.